Last week, I took the risk to spend money… money I said I did not have to spend, but obviously, I had it somewhere to spend, because I spent it. I said YES, when I wanted to say NO. I said YES, because it did seem like a good deal. I said YES and NO at the same time. Either way, I walked out of the place with the THING I bought.
Oh my God! Did I really allow this to happen? Did I just spend so much, from every different credit and debit card I had? Did I really want it? YES. I had been looking into such things. But, was this the right one? Was this really a deal? I should have/could have …DIDN’T go home and research it. What a fool I am.
And then I remembered. Do not put myself down, hate myself, criticize myself, feel shame and loathing. Ok. This is happening for a reason. HOW I so innocently walked into that place with no intention of buying anything at all…. and walked out of there with THAT is absolutely the most interesting thing I have done in a long time. I am baffled at myself.
What an amazing sales person… so beautiful, so young, so convincing, so validating of my NEED for this thing. Yes, I deserve THIS. I am moving forward in the world, and I need THIS THING to make it better. This is hilarious.
(Of course I said to myself… I can take it back. Of course. That is the logical ting to do - a little grief bargaining.)
And then I said to the Universe in somewhat a declaration and command - “If I am supposed to have this thing, then bring me the same amount of money today, so I can put it back in my account TODAY!”
And the Universe said “OKAY.”
And within two hours, I had an email that offered me twice the amount of money I spent. And in an hour later, I was offered 3x the amount of money I spent.
And so I learned the best lesson I could have ever learned that day. Because I spent a giant amount of money for ME on one single day, on one single THING - I became aware that I even COULD do this. I felt FREE to do this, even if it was a bad choice.
And because I declared that I would receive this money right back and because I have been dreaming and feeling what it will feel like to become a multi-millionaire and be able to build the Soulville Geodesic Dome for the community and pay off my own house and have a new roof and all of that…. My body, mind and spirit were prepared. And so it was.
But this is not the best part of the story. Later, in telling this story to my class as an example of making declarations and commands so to materialize a certain reality …. I became aware of the feeling of shame and embarrassment that I originally even spent that amount of money, no matter what else happened.
I could not tell the amount. I was embarrassed to tell my sister and best friend. They would judge me. I knew they would judge me. If it had been $250 dollars, all would be okay. But - $2500 was too much - beyond reason for a beauty product. Yes..a beauty product…. A beauty product… a beauty product, really? Who does that?
And then I realized that I could never manifest becoming truly wealthy if I was embarrassed or felt guilty to spend $2500. I have not been resonating a wealthy vibration. I have only been resonating as a thousandaire. I have been a thousandaire… manifesting thousands of dollars easily, and spending thousands of dollars even more easily on expenses and living.
In order to be truly wealthy, I must resonate as a millionaire, a multi-millionaire, a billionaire…. With the ability to spend whatever I want to spend without guilt, shame, worry or any lower vibrational frequency. I must share my joy of money. I am healing my family of origin pattern of “hiding what I buy from my father, via my mother’s demand.”
What an amazing process and what an amazing Universe…. Just waiting for our command… as we resonate the beautiful vibrations of whatever we desire.
I decided to keep the beauty product. Maybe my wrinkles will actually diminish. Maybe though the bigger picture is that I will build the geodesic dome, materialize the wealth I desire to create this dream for the people , my family and for myself in all ways. I deserve it. Everyone deserves it.
So here is the final quiz - Answer these questions to make sure you get the message.
At this point, Wendyne has learned a big lesson:
A. It is never really about the money
B. She was an idiot to buy that thing
C. Wendyne deserves an anti-aging beauty product
D. All of the above
A most amazing principle and way of being is:
A. Beware of amazing, manipulative sales people
B. In this case, thank the amazing, manipulative sales people
C. Don’t kill the messenger
D. Both B and C
In order to materialize all that you desire:
A. You must make a dream board and become a millionaire
B. You must dream the dream, believe it, feel it and take the risk to BE it
C. Dysmantle all the old patterns that keep your bright light from shining
D. Both B and C
And So It Is.
Aho!